"The Mirror Of My Soul"
The mirror of my soul, once broken so long ago...I look into the pieces, only shattered images can I see...No true reflection, just distorted pictures of me...Where once was a reflection, Of what God meant to be...Now only broken images, Of the reflection I see...Picking up the pieces, returning them one by one...God re makes this mirror, By the blood of His Son...And some day as I search, through shattered pieces of my soul...I just may look and see, God has restored and made whole...And then as I gaze into this reflection, I just might see...The beauty God intended,The reflection of me.

"Searching"
Your heart searches for peace,as your soul thirsts...The longing is unquenchable,pain lingers...until His touch you feel. Then, for a moment, your mind is at rest.

"A Promise"
Thunder rages, lightning strikes,the gray clouds...my mind. His love whispers to my spirit, bringing a sunset of peace to color my soul... And the storm passes on.

"The Mind Spins"
The mind spins, the heart breaks.Hope is hidden,fear and pain spread...Darkness encircles all. Talking, waiting, hurting, praying. The light will come, you've known it's touch...But, then it disappears. They say "Be patient! But... The mind spins, the heart breaks. Hope is hidden, fear and pain spread. Darkness encircles all. Waiting,opening memories of pain...only brings more pain. Waiting brings despair. And... The mind spins, the heart breaks. Hope is gone, fear and pain spread. The darkness takes all...Where did the light go?

"Wax Smiles"
Wax smiles that say hello...All is fine, never better! And you? Now it comes. Do you speak the truth of your selfs state? Or do you wear a wax smile?

"Desert of your soul"
In the desert of your soul, your tears fall as sand...dry as dust, they blow away with the wind. Walking through this valley of the shadow of evil...death's smirk stares upon your pain, waiting for you to fall. Your heart forty years has wandered on...Searching, longing...Oh Lord! When will this journey end? There before you, a new path opens it's way. Your heart beats quickly...Is this the path? Is this that for which your soul seeks? A path of weeping have you found, One paved in tears...Your heart breaks. What will the end of this road I travel hold? Will the joy of His heart show it's face to me? Or will there be yet one more path to travel before this seeking soul finds peace?

"Defenses"
Pain and fear burn deep within me, and leaves me feeling ice cold... To put down your defenses, is to leave yourself wide open for hell to ride straight through you... And if you don't, can Jesus get through?

"Too Late"
The room is dark, and I am alone. It Finally happened. He came and left without me. I didn't know what else to do. I tried, but it wasn't good enough. I had so many questions, but nobody could answer them. They would say..."just tell Him!" But I didn't know how. I did try...many times over. I didn't know what i was doing wrong. I know it wasn't His fault, for He is faultless. I tried not to give up, but it was so hard. Friends said they would pray, but they would turn their backs on me. How could I learn to trust, when those who called themselves friends...couldn't be trusted? But still, the final line, it comes down to just Him and me. I screwed up! Why couldn't I understand? I'm not going to know what to do without my family. They were all I had! What chance if any is left for me? Or, is this it? But wait! I sit up...it was only a dream! Or was it? I look around me...The room is dark, and I am all alone..... .

"Childhood Lost"
My heart and soul feel shrouded in sorrow. My mind lay's heavy in thoughts of a sadness of what should have been...but never will be. My childhood was stolen, snatched away and trashed. Remembering...grief runs through my being, shaking me apart inside until there is nothing left but emotions that are false. Pain is the only true emotion left. How long? How long before the quiet beatings of life return to my heart?

"And I Cry"
Innocent games of hide and go seek... But you, you just had to peek. To tell you said,I would surely die... I couldn't even cry. All I could do, was hide inside. Death and anger stood by my side... Fear's dark hands, covered my eye's I couldn't even cry... my mind was locked, by all his lies. Where do I go from here? I ran the race... Now here we are, back face to face. All that I thought was gone... haunts me once again, can I still hang on? When will this nightmare end? When will peace become my friend? And I cry...

"How do you stop the pain?"
Inside, the pain is deep.So many years of hurt...Then Jesus comes, he's there...but buried, hidden from you behind the pain. Sometimes you can see, then the pain overtakes you. How do you find the strength alone to let Jesus cover the pain? How can you go on when the hurt stays? How do you win, when the loss is already there? How do you stop the pain?

"Loss"
My soul is bleeding...for I feel your loss to me is forever. How can I continue without your touch? Was it all a lie? I guess I'll never understand why! What is left? My heart has died...